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I met many guys and no one cared about me as a person. They cared that my parents had money. I wish my mother would have told me about guys.  She never did. When I did meet the man who loved me for me. I was happy. I wished I had a job which paid me good money. My parents told me to live on disability. I wish I never listened to them. I can’t go back in time. I hope the books I write will give me a living. Life is difficult when you have many challenges in your life. Until people understand what it is like to have a disability they won’t understand the struggles people with disabilities face. I wish many things, but you can’t redo your life, but live it to the best of your ability.

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I buy what is important. I pay my bills. Buy things I need. I buy for my family first. If I am in a good mood I buy for myself. Money is important, but necessities always come first. Life is a rollercoaster. I have my good days I have my worry days which are often. Life is unfair to those on a fixed income. The rich get richer and people who are struggling every day worry where their next meal is going and if they will lose their house 🏡. It is sad the choices we have to make just to stay afloat. I am lucky to have my family with me.  People should be great full if they have  their partner with them. It takes two. Spending 💰 you have to worry about. I wish I was that lucky. Until something happens in your life, try hard to put money away. It just might save your life. Life should be better than this. Keep your family close. In the end that is all we have.

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I go for a walk and I enjoy it. Taxi cabs are expensive, so I walk. In the winter time I stay home, but I go out if I have to. Running shoes are comfortable. High heels 👠 no thanks. Flats are okay with dresses. I would rather walk with comfort than suffer in pain. Running shoes come in many colors and that is 😎 cool.

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I used to believe that I was living in a free country. I used to believe it was a safe place to live. Not anymore. We live in a world of greed and control. A spouse dies and you end up with less. It is not justice. It is unfair. Life is about living and happiness. I don’t see that. Freedom is lost online and in living life. When is enough, enough. The rich get richer. The people who struggle have to go to services to feed their family. If we had a prime minister who cares about the people we would be better off. Until then. I do what I have to do to live. My kids are my priority. I wish life is better but I only can wish.

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People get in trouble when they fight someone. Maybe that person was being bullied and no one cared to intervene. You both were charged for fighting. The laws protect the bullies. We need to protect ourselves from those who harm us. It also includes protecting our home and family and keeping them safe. It is time for a change in our system.

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I enjoy writing and expressing my likes and what I believe. The computer gives me the opportunity to do so. I could research stuff online and play games. It does have its downfalls, but that is part of life. Enjoy your weekend. Have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍

Without trust nothing works. Government, parents, friends, or a relationship.

A leader does what is right. Not just for himself or herself. It is not about you, but for all. I haven’t seen anyone who leads for the better. It is for power, control and greed. That they do it for.

Being a leader anyone can be, but being an honest, truthful one is rare.

Leaders come and go, but how the world is today. No leader can fix it. My opinion.

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I wouldn’t uninvent anything because there is good and bad in all things. What one does with it, is the issue. We can ruin anything or we can work with it. It all depends on you.

Computers help write, draw, and express. Plus it gives us more opportunity. We can change with the times, or not. It depends on what you are trying to achieve.

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I hate it. Every time I tell someone. They say, “are you, Avril Levine?”. The singer. I am not a singer. Life goes on. I was named after my grandfather. My mom’s father. I never changed my name. I don’t like it, but it’s my name.

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I am me. If you like me cool. If you don’t like me. That is cool too. I am not here to impress. I am not perfect. If I changed anything I wouldn’t be me. If you change something about yourself, it shows you will do anything to impress. If I change anything it’s my hair color because I don’t like gray and I am doing that for me. Life is complicated, so why change what makes you, you. If everyone would rather be fake, so let it be. Being real is better than being fake. Actions speak louder than words. So be 😎 cool, and be you.

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Bed bugs are hard to kill. This is my challenge. I tried killing them with coke. No go. I tried bug powder and it helps. I tried cooling my house but it didn’t work. I want to get rid of them.  They are getting less, so see what happens.

My other challenge is trying to save money and enjoy it. Life goes on.

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I like playing concentration. No one can beat me. I played my brother’s friend once and he said, never again. He never played me again.

I miss my grandmother. She played cards with her friends for years. I miss her.

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I think people are good, but I am usually wrong about them. I thought people were good hearted, kind and honest even truthful. It is hard to judge a person before you get to know them. So I learned to not assume how a person is, until I get to know them.

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Also Happy New Year to my followers

When the world was normal everything went as planned. Life was tolerable, but today. There are fewer jobs, more homeless people, and people losing their homes because prices are going up, and up . When will this madness stop? We need people who care about people and that the government should give to their people first and not other countries. We need stability, not chaos. Most politicians care about their agenda and not people who struggle every day. We need change. We need a better tomorrow. I used to think the government cares about their voters, but that is not true anymore. Greed and power change people. Not for the better. There are things that make me angry, but I won’t write about it. I wish humanity would work together, but that will never be. Justice is only for the rich, and poor people who just suffer.

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I have learned a lot about people when my husband died. I had help when I needed it. It is not easy to ask for help. Asking for help is like pulling your teeth out. 

When I told people about bed bugs no one wants to come into my house until I get rid of them. I have learned a lot about people. When everything goes fine they are there. When you have bed bugs sorry not now. It shows people’s true character. I look at life not the same anymore. I believe it is by people’s actions that show what they are all about.

The only influence in my life was my husband, and now I have to depend on myself. I have met kind people. But I will never feel the same as I did before. People talk and help when they feel comfortable. When there are bed bugs in your house you’re on your own.

Life is tough when you know people lie and that includes family. When you rely on people you need to watch your back. Trust is difficult when you don’t know who to trust.

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I am really excited about using an AI program. I say what I want to see and it comes out. I am getting used to using it, and it is fun. I like writing too.

Happy Holidays and a very good New Year for all

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My parents taught me not to lie. My parents hid things from me. I know there are certain things you shouldn’t say to people. I am honest, trustful. I keep my word. I want to be remembered for that. I don’t want people to look at me, with a disability, but a person who knows what I am talking about or I should say writing about. What I write about is what I believe in. I want people to look at me as truthful. Lying and even hiding things that should be said is wrong. My thoughts for today.

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When my husband was alive he played Fallout 76. He loved killing. He was good. I would sit with him and watch him play for hours. He swore a lot, and died a lot, but he was enjoying himself. I miss him playing.  Before he got sick we would go for walks. I miss that. He was fun to be around. He played all the Fallout games, but fallout 76 was his favorite because he could go anywhere he wanted. I miss him.

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I like staying home. No passport, no money, no people around to bother me. Not worrying about losing stuff. Home is where I love being.

Being simple is who I am.

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He did my driveway without wanting any money. He did it because he saw what I was going through. His kindness made my day.  There are many young people who do that. Life is not the same because my husband is not with me. People help me in a time where I feel lost. I admire that because they don’t ask me anything, they do it because they want to. There should be more people like them. It is funny. Family does nothing, but strangers do more. Go figure.

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You know my husband died this year. March 2025. It has been a sad time for my kids and me. Still have these damn bed bugs. I am waiting for something terrible to happen. I got animals in my loft. I hope next year will get better. Life can be so unfair. I hope you guys are well and doing fine. I am just venting.

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I have learned that being me is the way I should be. Pretending to be someone else never works. If people don’t like me I don’t care. It would make me crazy to please everyone I meet. Being nice all the time sucks because you don’t get thank yous or your welcome. If I change myself in any way then I lose who I truly am as a person.

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I don’t like mornings. Even though the light is beautiful.  I prefer the dark.

Night is full of mystery and magic. Night is when stars are out. Unless it’s cloudy. The moon is full of energy where the magic happens. The night is my light.

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I love cats because you don’t have to walk them in the winter months. When it’s cold and slippery outside. Cats 🐈 are cuddly and cute. Black cats are my favorite because of their color. Black is the color mystery. The night sky. Cats are fun to play with too. Plus I love wild cats too.

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Growing up I believed parents are supposed to protect you and teach you things. I grew up knowing the opposite. What I believed in failed me. Trust is gone, my mother-in-law is gone. Nothing I ever did was good enough. It hurts when your partner dies and all you get is stress, and no one says sorry for your loss. I turned away from my family except my brother. Life is sad when you can’t even trust your family.

I am at peace with my life. No stress and no pretending I love who I hate deeply. I feel free to be me. I am glad my kids think I am a strong and good mom.

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Trust is very important because if you don’t have that. No relationship will work out. I have learned that the hard way what trust is. Trust to me has to be earned. Actions speak louder than words.

With hate you should know why you hate someone or a group of people. Hate starts wars, kills people who don’t even want to be involved in the situation. Hate is pointless. I see too much hate. Humanity should be one but that will never happen.

Then there are bed bugs.  Bed bugs are insects that can be very annoying. They are hard to get rid of. When that happened to me people didn’t want to be near me, or come into my house. This shows me that people can be paranoid not to do their job. I feel black balled and forgotten. Bed bugs are annoying, but I didn’t create them. Sorry I am venting. This shows people’s true character.

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I like to write ✍️ . Read books on stuff I like. I would be doing weight training. I think it is fun. I would go for walks. Drink lots of coffee ☕ especially ice cappuccino. 

That is about it.

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My kids are beautiful people. They are caring and honest. They are truthful. They have been through hard times with their dad gone. He died, but they keep on living and doing what they can. They are my life, my happiness and my joy. Without them I would be lost.

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I would not go swimming, but to walk along the beach on the warm sand. Then sitting and seeing the sun go down. Watching the silver on the water shine. Even seeing the stars shine brightly.

Little poem

Walking with you

Feeling the breeze on us

Holding hands

And taking a little squeeze

Feeling our love blossom

Wow what a walk

The end

April is the beginning of 🌼 spring when grass is green and flowers starting to bloom. The days get longer and ice is gone. The tree buds start growing again. Beautiful how nature works.

It is the same month I met my guy. April 13th. Good Friday. I remember that day clearly. I felt safe with him. The first thing I said was. “Can I see your eyes”. I said that because eyes never lie, and they are the window to our soul. That is what I believe. That was the best day of my life.

Life is not the same without him, but my love for him will never die

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There is so much anger and chaos living anywhere does not matter anymore. Where I live is okay. My house 🏡 is my safest place. We live in chaos because when very religious groups came to the west, the world became worse. It angers me that people can’t see what I see. People are allowed to be religious, but when you destroy a group then religion itself should be destroyed. I have seen hate, but never acceptance. Freedom is no more. When you are told how to live, then being safe anywhere is out the door 🚪. 

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My home 🏡 is where I like to be. I feel safe, and happy. I feel protected. Growing up I felt I was being watched. That is a very scary feeling. I hated to go out. Even school was a chore. My parents never understood why. I knew something was haunting me. Today I understand why. It is like a bad dream. 🏠 Is my happy place. Where I am safe and protected. Being in the country with nature, trees, rivers, and wild animals I rather be. Life is weird and my life is a story that is hard to believe.

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I lose a lot of stuff. The only thing I have is my hair brush. My hair is important to me.

The one coolest thing I had was not an object but a person. He was my everything. He always had a surprise for me.  He was 😎 cool. I know I can’t keep a person, but he will always be in my 💜 heart.

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He was dating my sister. He was in a band. I was playing guitar 🎸 for people and my parents. I invited my brother and sister but they didn’t want to come. My sister’s boyfriend Jess came. I was really happy about that. After the concert he told me he was proud of me. He will never be forgotten. I hope he is doing well.

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I love 😽 cats very much. They are cute. I like the YouTube channel. It is nice to listen to music. Especially when I am writing stuff. I use Quora a lot. I answer answers for people’s questions. Some people like my answers and others don’t. In time my book will be published. Then I will write other books. I go on Facebook and Instagram and X. 

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I would sit in the front seat of my dad’s 🚗 and he would drive me to school 🎒. I enjoyed math and I learned my times tables. I could add 3 columns fast. My brother and sister liked sitting in the back. It is funny, but I wasn’t fond of reading, but now I read when my kids are out. Which once in a while. I write when I get a chance.

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I look at everything I am on. I spend a quick glance on some of them. Others like here I look at every day, but I can’t read everyone’s stuff. I try to read what I can. I answer questions on Quora and I am there a lot.  I am working on my book, but that 🛑 stop and go. I enjoy being here.  Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night 🌉 wherever you are in the world 🌎.

My grandmother was a very special woman. She could sew and watch t.v. at the same time. She cheered me up when I was down. She was truthful with me, and she listened to me. We enjoyed the same shows. She cared about what I did. She was a great person. I would go to the beach with her. She played cards until early morning. I miss her. I didn’t know my grandfather. But I wish I did. They were 11 years apart, but their love was priceless. Life was not the same when they died. I hope I meet them in another life.

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I wish my legs were stronger. They are weak.

I wish my back was stronger too.

I wish I had all new teeth. My life has been very stressful when my husband got sick.  When he died. I wish he could come back, but he can’t.

I wish my wishes come true.

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I hate those tiny little creatures. They destroy so much. Since my husband died in March they hung around and I still can’t get rid of them. Does anyone have suggestions? I haven’t been writing because they keep me up at night. People have given suggestions and nothing works. I tried vinegar that does not work. I can’t afford anyone to come in. I have to do it on my own. Life sucks, but I am strong enough to get through this. I needed to vent.

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I never felt that I was part of my family. Their world didn’t involve me. Having a disability they didn’t know how to talk to me. I felt like an outcast. They would stand in a circle and talk to other family members. I sat on my own. Just because you are family does not mean you belong. Family is supposed to be loving and caring, not mine. I rather swim with the sharks at least they know you exist. It’s sad, but I don’t care anymore. It is funny that strangers find time to talk to me. Go figure. I have learned that if you can’t trust family who can you trust. A stranger with a good ❤️ heart.

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I would be writing my book on paper 📜. I would enjoy coffee time, and sit and watch the trees move in the breeze. I would listen to music on the radio. But with computers and cell phones I can write and watch the wind blow and listen to music all at the same time.

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Energy is influenced by anger

Energy is influenced by sadness

Energy is influenced by my kids

Energy is influenced by the weather

Energy in the winter keeps me inside

Energy through music heals me

Without energy I would not be here

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I always felt we were not alone. Alien beings who are they, and what form are they? Are they dangerous or are they peaceful beings? Or both. The sky is so massive that it would be a waste of space if it was just us. How many other planets like earth are out there? I always wondered about that. It would be a waste of space if it was just us. What abilities do they have? I also wondered about black holes and where they go? Is it a future hole, a past hole or maybe the future. Who really knows.

I have learned about paranormal activity. The spirit realm where spirits fly. It is a very interesting subject. There are other realms too. The paranormal is something you don’t see with your eyes, but you feel their presence. Some people can see spirits. Those people think outside the box, and have an open mind. Life is not just us but so much more.

We are never alone, but so much is hidden from us because if we knew the truth it would change the world 🌍.

It is something to think about. Thanks for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌎.

Growing up I enjoyed music. I love, love songs mostly.

My parents listened to classical music and that sucked. Opera no way.

Rock and roll that was okay. Guns and roses, Motley Crue, Cinderella and others.

When I started to listen to saxophone music 🎵. I love, love songs mostly I mostly enjoyed it because there was no singing. It was peaceful. It calmed me down when my parents left and my mother-in-law went home 🏡.

There was another reason I enjoyed saxophone 🎷 music. I played it in my past life. I just felt a strong connection to it. I can’t play it now, but I love to hear the music.

Without music how could anyone walk down the aisle at their wedding. So without music it would be boring.

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I am not a leader or a follower either. I write to open peoples thinking in a different light. Sometimes someone’s words can hit a nerve. Or it changes someone’s thinking.

A leader tells people what to do. I don’t like to tell anyone what to do. Just like I don’t like being told what to do. A leader can challenge someone’s thinking to think like him or her. That is a choice.

A follower does not question anything because that person wants everyone to like him or her and they want to fit in.

A leader can be a good one or maybe a bad one. It all depends on what you believe to be true.

A follower does not believe in themselves and that is sad. They have a hard time making choices. We have to learn that our voice matters, and it does. Even when no one listens. Whatever you do, it’s your life.

Challenge yourself and make your own choices.

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I respect the men and women who work out. It comes with hard work and dedication. It takes time to exercise, but eating right and good sleep makes all the difference.

I believe in weight training. It is fun and exciting to see the changes in your body. It is better than breaking glass because you don’t have to clean the mess. Plus it’s not messy.

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Being 63 sucks because having leg pain and arthritis does become a pain when you need to clean your house. Also other reasons too.

Weight Training is the best exercise because it does the whole body. Weight training is not just for men. Women can do it too.

It helps release anger, and opens up muscles you never knew you had. You also have a sense of pride in yourself of what you can achieve. You are never too old to make yourself better.

Wishing to do something is one thing, but doing it is another. When your mind, body and soul is alive you can achieve anything.

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There is one word I do favor when it comes to friends and relationships. It is trust. Without trust and honesty you have nothing.

Trust is being reliable and there for a person in time when you need someone to cry on, and to listen to your struggles and hardships. Without trust you end up relying on yourself and you try to trust a person but you think to yourself what is going to happen to you, and when will my relationship end.

Trust is very important and when you have been screwed over your whole life you question everything. Life should not be like this but it is.

I hope I can trust again, but proven it will take time. I have learned to trust one person, me. That is a start.

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I wish I had a good week or even a good day. I am sorry to be a drag. When my best friend and husband died. Everything went to hell. I find out I have bed bugs and nobody wants to come into my house. I feel like a plague. Life can be so unfair.

People tell me I am strong and I am doing things that I need to do. Inside I feel like screaming and crying and no one cares. The only one who thinks of me is my brother. When you trust your family they stab you in the back. You end up on your own.

Writing is the only thing that keeps me going. I wish life was better. Maybe if I am lucky it will get better. Sorry to depress people who are following me.  I hope next year will be better.  I will have a good week when all bed bugs are out of my home 🏡. Then I will be better.

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I thought my family loved me, but their actions went another way. My sister had a hard time knowing about me and she didn’t even try. My brother was distant but we are getting closer. My parents and mother-in-law can’t stand her. So they are out of my life.

It is okay to hold a grudge because you know who you can trust and who not to trust. It takes courage to walk away from family members who lied to you for so many years.

My life has hard challenges but I am a fighter. I will get through my anger and challenges. My kids keep me strong. Their happiness is important to me. People come and go, but people who truly love you stick around.

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When my husband died it broke my heart 💜 because I would miss his smile and his positive energy. I know he would not be in pain anymore and that was and is important to me. I was with him for 35. Friendship never dies and love never dies. He is at peace now. He is missed. I am glad he came into my life. I hope we can meet in another lifetime.

What I am angry about is. How he was treated when he was alive. The frustrations he was going through. His mother never listened to him. My parents never did either. I did, and I felt his anger and frustrations. Love I had for him kept him going. When you are full of anger and hate your heart says I don’t want to be here. So listen to people who need to be heard. They will thank you in many ways.

My husband and my best friend. I miss you and my love will never die for you.

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Cities are too big. A town would be full of trees, rivers, ponds, and a beautiful park where children can play safely. There would be no crimes, no violence. I wish it could be that way.

The town would have nice shops and coffee shops. So I can have IceCaps coffee from Tim Hortons. I am allowed to dream. The town would be safe and people would be nice to each other. I can dream.

The town would have better prices. Things would be cheaper. Food, clothes, and so much better. A town can’t have anything negative. A positive place to be.

It sounds good, but again I am allowed to dream.

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My kids who are adults now keep me going. They need me and I need them both. It’s not easy being mom and dad, but I’ll try. 

When I have energy I ride my still exercise bike. When I get the courage I will get into weight training. I enjoyed pumping weights especially when I was angry.  I tried breaking glass 🍷 but that was a mess to clean up. So I stuck with the weights.

I don’t like my name. But I kept it. I didn’t know him. He died before I was born. Life gives you challenges, but it goes on. You don’t ask who your family is. My life would have been better if I knew what my rights are, but I didn’t.

Today  I live my life my way. I don’t ask for approval. I do what I want, when I want. I still have my name because it was given to me. I like being me. I know when I say something I mean it.

Names can change, but what I feel, what I believe stays with me for life. A name might change, but what you believe stays with you for life

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